Going To Rehab

What is it like going to rehab?

Part One

Experiencing the Deepness of Oneself

Up Close & Personal Look at Rehab

My first month of internship at Serenity Vista was completed, and I felt like I had found the reference points in my new environment. Just as I started to feel comfortable, life decided it was time to challenge me and get me back out of my comfort zone. So, as a new guest was on her way for a full recovery program, I was asked to start the program with her, as a guest myself.  This was recommended as a powerful opportunity to experience the recovery process from the point of view of someone actually going through the experience.

From Resisting Change to Embracing the Uncomfortable

I imagine this is what it must feel like, to have an intervention from one's relatives. When I was invited to join the full program, my first instinct was to resist the idea. I was dealing with inner conflict. “Why would I need to look at myself?" I thought. It is funny how I was in the denial phase without even knowing it. My reaction to the idea was likely very much similar to one of an alcoholic when someone recommends that they go to rehab.

The reason for this is simply that we are humans. It is easier for us to find the flaws in others than to really look at ourselves. Easier to find excuses to our behaviors, than to take responsibility and change them. My ego was trying to convince me that I didn't have a lot of things to work on. Well, I didn't know at that time that two weeks later I would understand the exact problem with this type of thinking.

We all have garbage we carry with us, past hurts that still live in our every cell.Today I know why there is resistance -  there is something that the ego is trying to hide. That scary place was exactly where I was asked to go. I was asked to challenge my thinking, by letting go of all I thought I knew. After a day of emotional turmoil, I came to see that this was an opportunity for me to understand what a person really goes through in an addiction recovery treatment center.

I left my intern role, and dove into my vast and complicated self. I was no more an observer, but a human on a self-discovery journey in an intensive addiction treatment program. I knew it was not going to be easy but I finally broke the resistance and opened up to this personal opportunity as well as a chance to learn by experience.

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To Be Continued...

Maya is an intern student at Serenity Vista Addiction Recovery Drug Rehab in Panama. Follow along with her as she has an up close and personal view of what rehab is really like.‍

Serenity Vista Addiction Drug Rehab Retreat is a holistic, private pay facility, located in gorgeous Panama.  Come and experience the clean fresh mountain air and fresh tropical fruits and vegetables while learning the tools to live a sober life.  Learn about a typical day in rehab at Serenity Vista here.