Fear in Recovery

Part 4 of 5 - Maya's journey from internship student to full rehab

Dare the Truth & Break Free

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Facing Fear in Recovery[/caption]I am human. Like every human, I have fears. During these weeks in rehab at Serenity Vista, I had the opportunity to deal with some of my old fears that came back. Here are the fears I came to realize I used to have:

-rejection-not being loved for who I was-not being good enough-not being accepted-being fat-being left out-not knowing the answer to everything

I still have a few of those old fears that come back from time to time, but I came to realize that they are just illusions. Since they were created from false beliefs, they are not objective and there is no need to take them seriously.Those fears have in the past paralyzed me in some situations. I have lost a lot of my time and energy locked in those fears. I have even unconsciously got involved in situations or relationships that confirmed those fears. From the confirmation, my belief in those fears grew until I started to believe I was my fear. I have self-sabotaged myself many times. I have been my own worse critic. I disrespected myself. I didn't listen to myself. I said “yes” when I meant “no” because I was so afraid of what would happen if I spoke my truth. If someone smiled at me, I would feel good about myself. If someone on the contrary, was angry at me, I would feel terrible. I realize now that nothing exterior can define who I am. I define who I am every moment by agreements I make. During this time in rehab at Serenity Vista, I learned to get in touch with my emotions. I learned to name them. From learning to recognize my emotions, I was able to get down to some of my fears that were still holding me back.

Getting Honest About Fear in Recovery

Some time ago, writing and being honest about my fears would have been impossible to do. Being honest about my fears now is for me a true symbol of how I have grown. Once I realized what my false beliefs were, I was given tools at Serenity Vista to shift those beliefs that no longer serve me and find ways to change them into more accurate truths of who I truly am.

To Be Continued...

Maya is an intern student at Serenity Vista Addiction Recovery Drug Rehab in Panama. Follow along with her as she has an up close and personal view of what rehab is really like.One of the acronyms for FEAR, is Face Everything and Recover. It is really surprising for a lot of people what happens to their fear when they are able to shine a light into the dark corners of it. It vanishes! If you feel consumed by fears of living sober, choose an excellent drug rehab with international acclaim. Learn more about your choices for private pay rehab for alcohol and nicotine, and other drugs.